Losing someone you care about to suicide is such a complex experience. It’s like walking down a hallway full of doors, some you enter, others you don’t. Remembering the love between you is sweet, and you can enter those rooms over and over again. But the shadows of their despair and the ways you couldn’t take it away from them loom heavy in the rooms you avoid. Friendship Commanders have written a record about going through every room, and their melodic grungy post rock is bringing up the heartbreak I’ve packed away. “Blue” isn’t a sad song; actually, it feels like it’s full of hope, a reminder that even when we’re drowning in shadows light can peek in. This Nashville duo marries gritty fuzz and weighty rhythms with a glittering melody on “Blue” that is somehow bringing together all of the love and despair in my memories and inviting them to share the same space. “If you don’t yet have the language for what you want to say, you will.” It’s an emotional rollercoaster for me, not gonna lie. “Blue” is their new single that’s out on all platforms tomorrow — pre-save it here. Right now, check out our premiere of their video for “Blue” below…
Writing this project was largely prompted by the suicide of an old Boston friend. When he died, I glanced back at things I’d never wanted to, and I wrote a whole record about it. The process was like going underwater for short bursts and coming back up for air when I needed to. While I was down there, I was like, I suddenly saw what all of this was, and I’m going to name it now.
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